closure (?)
i tried to give myself closure before my twentieth birthday in a google document. i outlined all my experiences of the past year, roughly beginning around 01.08.2024, in chronological order and i placed them into a table of contents on the document. i made an attempt at writing about it all in detail. there are nine more days until i turn twenty, and i have not completed it. i probably never will. i wrote fourteen pages covering three out of the eight topics listed, and maybe that has to be good enough. the end goal was to print it out when i completed it and burn the pages, and then i would delete the document from my system. closure . or, so i thought. i do not know how to get closure. i have never known. i know what it means , or at least the textbook definition of it: "the end or closing down of something" "coming to terms with the end of a significant emotional bond" "an understanding" "acceptance" etc etc etc. this is closure. i've...