“ once more to see you ” (titled after & heavily inspired by a mistki song)

 come

let us go home, my dear

be alone with me for a moment

i know you’re afraid of being seen 

so, let’s go somewhere no one will know us

so, let’s go somewhere no one (knows our name)

you pull away from me

and shake your head at me

i know that look in your eyes

that pitiful look that tells me i 

am being too desperate, 

that i try too hard

your eyes frantically search the room

what are you looking for? 

(who) are you looking for?

what are you (so scared of?)

there is no one looking

so stop looking at them; look at me

please

please (look at me)

come home with me

where it will only be us

where it will (just) be (you and i)

where it will only be (me and you)

come inside with me

where we lay all our problems to

rest in the bed we share

everyone is looking

so what if they are? let them look, let them— 

we shouldn't be doing this

we (can’t do this)

why not? why *can’t* we?

if you don’t want to be seen i will close my eyes

and in return you can 

fill my lips with you

fill my lips with (your taste)

fill my lips with (your name)

you won’t turn me down, will you?

why are you pulling away, again

disgust

you’re disgusted

i’m disgusting (desperate) (?)

you’re not simply 

scared of being seen?

you’re scared of being seen

with me

is it even fear? no,

you don’t want to be seen with me

we have a reputation to maintain

this cannot happen between us

we must not do anything to

tarnish our reputation

*our* reputation? 

does being with me besmirch your 

good name?

does *your* reputation 

matter this much to you

does *your* reputation 

matter (more to you than the intimacy we share)

come

let us go home, my dear

be alone with me for a moment

i know you don’t want to be seen with me

though, i don't understand why

we can still go somewhere no one will know us

we can still go somewhere no one (knows our name)

is this the love (i think) i deserve?